The Walk of Shame…. not always so bad…

So in an effort to get over the debacle of my relationship with “Crazy Bruce”.  I decided to have some fun this weekend. I mean truly what better way to get over a loser than sleeping with another loser? OK, OK, just a little joke here…. In all honesty, I didn’t think Crazy Bruce was really all that angry until he deleted & blocked me on Facebook, I mean DAMN, we can’t even be cyber friends?  So the past few days I’ve been feeling a little down & out but to shake the doldrums I decided to go out this weekend. 

So a friend of mine was in town and invited me out to a comedy show.  The show was OK but it was nice to get my laugh on. What happened next was a bit unexpected, the bartender asked me out!  I was a bit nervous, because he wasn’t black (mexican actually) but on a whim I decided to try it.  I had a blast!! It was really nice to be out with someone who held the door, paid for drinks & called me beautiful!! Now that’s how you get out of the doldrums! So of course all this positivity had me in the mood for a little action so I ended the evening with an old friend (male in case you were wondering) who was in town for the weekend.  So the next morning, we both slept late so we ended up leaving the hotel at the same time…. This was actually kind of nice.  I usually dread that morning walk back to my car, wearing the clothes from the previous night….The walk of shame can be SOOOOOO LONG! This time  though it was different, leaving at the same time made it seem more like a couple checking-out as opposed to a “hoe” slinking out in the morning! Gotta admit it was pretty nice, we hugged and he went to his car & I went to mine.  I know I shouldn’t care what random people at a hotel or on the street think of my rumpled clothing and hair, but hey it still makes me feel weird, and that feeling sticks until I drive away and can kind of add a bad color to the entire experience. Yuck!! Didn’t know that something so small as walking with a friend could make the difference.

Did I mention the hotel was in Paris? Just kidding.... it was South Holland, but you get the point... LOL

Lesson learned: Don’t take that walk of shame alone!! It’s  always better with a friend…. 😉

Incoming text from…… Crazy Bruce

OMG….I had a committed a  major cell phone faux pas which cost me my last boyfriend…well my last fuckbuddy…I  was “seeing”/”dating”  ok sleeping with a guy named Bruce.  I actually really liked this knucklehead. However he had the irritating habit that some men have of going completely crazy usually about once a month.  This insanity would only last a day or two but it was pretty bad he would snap off over minutia.  I would usually get upset and delete him from my cell phone only to add him back the next day.   Unfortunately I have the bad habit of giving people descriptive names in my cell  phone and logically he got the name “Crazy Bruce”.  The bad part is that I’m also lazy I made that change several months ago and simply forgot to change it back.  He spent the night the other day and reached for my phone to find out the time, before I could stop him.  At the bottom of my screen had my last incoming text message which was from him “Crazy Bruce”.  Wow was he mad, I was almost flattered that he cared that much (clearly my name must be crazy Amber in someone’s phone) but I really didn’t have any rational excuse and although I apologized this seems to have changed everything.  It really saddens me but I have certainly learned my lesson!!   Always have your cell phone locked!! I mean really what if “Little Dick Larry” or “To quick Trevor” had grabbed it…how embarassing!!

How 2 get over the break up of an non-relationship…

First I will answer the underlying question what is a “non-relationship”… Well I would call it an extended one night-stand… a booty-call that persists over months or years.  However, you look at it a casual albeit sexual relationship is what I would call a “non-relationship”.

Sooner or later all “non-relationships” come to an end.   Often it may take at least one of the parties a while to realize it has ended. Since this is a “non-relationship” there is no requirement of a note or the typical “break-up” conversation.  Often times one party simply stops returning the calls and/or texts of the other party.  Suddenly the other party realizes “damn, I’ve been dumped” which as a dumpee (yes even I have been dumped, shocking I know) is never fun.  While there are a plethora of books on the break-up of relationships  I have been hard pressed to find much out there on the break-up of “non-relationships”.  I mean come on, how do you get over a late night booty-call that has gone on for years???? There must be something?? Do they think just because there is no “official” relationship that no feelings are involved? Soooooo not true, relationship or not u may miss them when they’re gone so I have some suggestions (things I’ve heard ;-))

  1. Stop all contact once you finally realize you have been dumped…no since in giving that idiot ammunition to drink and laugh at with his/her friends;
  2. Self Improvement – Living well is the best revenge, and also a lot of fun so go for it after being “dissed”; Buy something new, Wear something new, hell become someone new but “Just Do It” and of course take every opportunity to flaunt it in the dumper’s face…
  3. Find someone new…now of course this person is the rebound person so don’t take it tooooo seriously because after a few weeks you may feel TOTALLY differently; but nothing really helps you get over a booty-call than… guess what? A brand spanking new, smarter, richer and of course more attractive, even better booty call!! If you find your true everlasting love that would absolutely destroy your non-relationship partner so go for that as well!!
  4. Shower repeat steps 1,2, & 3 !! Now in the rare instance when as the dumpee you may be filled with not only sadness and loneliness but also anger I have one more suggestion that I caution you to take therapy before,during and after if you decide to do it….  If you feel the dumping was inappropriately handled, and as the dumpee you were not  given the adequate respect a booty-call is due well… (I don’t encourage, recommend or take any liability for the following idea)
  • Violence to property (specifically a car, motorcycle, or boat) Now I AM NOT ENCOURAGING VANDALISM… However, a slashed tire, keyed car or the old sugar in the gas tank can do wonders for getting over how you’ve been wronged although the time in jail contemplating a “non-relationship” is never pleasant…. and if you happen to hook-up with someone who does not have a car (as I unfortunately did at one point) again see ITEM NO.  3  U CAN DO BETTER!! REALLY!! 🙂



Vacation Flings….Fun or Fake?

Sooooo, first I will apologize for not posting at all for the month of July or August….Not quite sure where the time went.  Karma and I promised fun, excitement, thrills and we will deliver it to our readers and ourselves!!! RIGHT KARMA?????  Fall is now upon us…gotta get the love train running before it gets to cold for fun (never:-) .  It would be nice to have some winter romance in front of the fire-place this year, so to step it up a notch I’ve gotten on gonna put internet dating to the test…

To jump-start the excitement, Karma and I went on a road trip.  This was a mini-vacation to celebrate my birthday.  I’m part West Indian (my father’s from Antigua) so we decided to take a road trip to Caribana which is held ever year in Toronto, Canada.  It’s usually the last weekend in July, its parties, a parade with bright costumes and amazing Reggae and Soca music.  WE HAD A BLAST!!!

Now no vacation is complete without a some romance right? So Karma and I got our flirt on…The question is how far should you go when having vacation fun? Does it simply end once you head home? I met 2 really interesting men…both pretty good-looking.  I was to much of a nerd, or punk, or well just plain nervous to “seal the deal” so to speak with either guy.  The irony is that one guy was from the midwest, super nice and SEEMED to really like me we exchanged numbers, I sent a text a few times but heard nothing…. The other guy was sexy, Jamaican, and wouldn’t even give me his last name…he’s the one that keeps in touch.   Sooooo, do you live in the moment have the most fun you can and just let it drop?  I’m not really sure, in the end I was grateful I didn’t let things go further but sometimes I wonder…Nothing ventured nothing gained?

What are the Rules of the Game?

Sometimes I feel like dating is a game where there are rules in play, I am just clueless as to what they are.  As a comedian I come across a wide range of people from celebrities to ex-cons (sometimes a combination of the two =) so I make an effort to judge people based on who they are and not what they have or what they do.  I honestly feel at the end of  a long day, I don’t want to have a conversation with an expensive car or designer clothes.  I want to talk to a person who is honest, kind and makes me laugh. 

Recently I met someone who really intrigued me and that hasn’t happened in like… well forever.  So I was excited, we hung out and it was really just plain old fun.  The problem was he doesn’t live in Chicago AND he’s a comedian. Two HUGE problems. First, I’m not really trying to do the long distance thing and second, dating someone you work with is just not a good idea. (not to mention sometimes comics can be “cuckoo for coco puffs”). So I really had no expectations and was surprised we kept in touch.  Things seemed to be cool, I went on vacation and didn’t text him for a couple of days and he sends this text message “guess you found a new man – that’s cool”. At first I thought he had to be a joking right? Even still I assured him I was still interested.  He said he hadn’t heard from me so I really couldn’t be.  Uh, wow, ok….. Anyway that was last week, this week I called him (once) left a message, I sent a text no reply, so I sent another stating I guess he’s to busy to text these days.  I get a text message back saying he’s out of the country, relaxing, not sure when he’ll be back, and won’t be texting for a few days, cause he’s “writing in his head” . WTF??? YOU DON’T KNOW WHEN YOUR COMING BACK TO THE UNITED STATES???I mean one week I go from not contacting him enough to basically disturbing his oh so deep “within his head” writing process, with a simple “hello, how are you?” text message? Sorry my mistake, I was under the impression that he actually WANTED me to contact him, because (and this is the killer) he said he wanted me to contact him. As a comedian myself I respect the writing process but not the snippy text message.

Sooooo easy come easy go while this indeed caused me some irritation today so long, farewell, no hard feelings.  Getting a text or call from me going forward is the last thing he will ever need to worry about.  I’m just irritated that I actually was starting to like him, that I broke a few of my own rules to do it only to have it end with a don’t call me I’ll call u text…

Ok, guess the first rule of dating  is never break the rules you set yourself, you put them there for a damn good reason so stick with what you know.  Playing by imaginary rules that may even change week to week, well it just plain sucks.  Guess this wouldn’t be an adventure without a few pitfalls…